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no cookies and a bed base

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3.55pm РConsumption of cookies at work today = 0

Can’t celebrate yet, the day is not done! And I have to work an extra half hour to make up for sick time last Friday. That’s an extra half hour of cookie temptation – *wild eyed, panicked look*

Ways I have decided to avoid the cookie clutch: do not sit in the staffroom for any of my breaks, instead head outside for a jaunt around the block followed by an egg muffin (see recipe here). Do not open the cookie jar to muse at what might be lurking inside. Do not be responsible for topping up the cookie jar. When purchasing cookies for said jar, only purchase cookies I don’t like.

Cookies I don’t like are not fun biscuits. They are the biscuits you feed to your children before they have a birthday party they can remember and then ask for the fancier cookies.

So, I have to buy fun cookies. It’s for the good of others. I shall sit back in the corner and watch thier waistlines increase as mine slowly, but surely, diminishes. Mwahahahaha!

I am aiming for a cookie free week. Feel free to ask me on Friday how I did. I encourage it!! It might mean nothing to you, but it’ll mean the world to me. I have to be accountable to someone other than myself. That isn’t working so I’m seeking outside reprimand.

Oooh see how I interchanged between cookies and biscuits!? I’m so Canadian/Kiwi. Biscuits, cookies. It’s all the same. Unless you’re in Canada and then you’ll tell me I’m wrong. Go on, I DARE you! ūüėČ

The bed base – I won an online auction and will be spending a whopping $21 on a bed base to prop up our oh so “70s crack chic; lives on the floor” mattress. I think then, my paranoia of being bitten my invisible mites can come to a stop. I’m 99% sure I’m not crazy. Ok, 89%.

I haven’t seen a photo of it but the seller had good feedback and was prompt with answering questions. It is pink and has six legs WITH WHEELS!! Score! So now I can swiftly slide around the room to my hearts content ūüôā

Lacking a third beverage today, need to go and top up the other two: green tea with mandarin and lime flowers and aqua. Ta-taa!


PS I jazzed up myyyy egg muffins with finely chopped mushrooms and brocolli and grated zucchini Рsauteed in olive oil, salt and pepper. I also halved cherry tomatoes and popped them in on top after I poured the egg in. It went: veges, sausages (breakfast real pork soss), egg mix (FREE RANGE!!!), tomatoes. Oven. Cook. Cool. Stash in containers to take to work. Eat extra one. Hehe. YUM!

this body of mine

It is my new mission to become re-obsessed with getting my body in shape. Trimming the fat. Cutting out the shit. Kicking myself up the arse. Why? Because I let myself go – I am a “before” picture. I weighed myself in New York in September of 2010 and then again in NZ back in January this year and I’d put on 12kgs. I was not happy. I knew I’d put on weight and I knew it wasn’t even gradual over that time, it was more like the last six or seven months of that, after husband (then boyfriend) and I moved in together. Winter set in and I didn’t feel like exercising because our apartment was a nice little dark and cosy cave I found solitude in. And the cupboards had snacks in them. Those naughty cupboards.

A few months ago (before husband arrived in NZ and I was dirt poor) I was starting to swim in my jeans (not actual swimming), my tummy was flattening and clothes were generally getting a bit looser – I could even buckle my belt a notch in, this same belt I used to buckle at the first notch when I first bought it. The reason this was happening was due to biking every day after work because I had no TV to watch and nothing better to do to kill the time before sleep. I also didn’t have a lot in the house to eat so I was surviving on pumpkin soup, smoothies, rice and curries. No meat, hardly any dairy and certainly no treats.

Then I started to get paid after a few months of not working, husband arrived bringing a little bit of money with him, then he started working so money was a little more abundant and we could have things in our groceries like cheese and meat and the odd bag of chips, wine, candy and the rest. And a meal out! Usually¬†Indian¬†with rich curries, rice and naan bread AND onion bhajis…creamy, carby foods on a regular basis.

So, even though I was doing my best to keep biking every day after work, there was more food to be eating and the good tv (sky/cable) had been installed; there were less and less reasons to go outside to kill time. I had¬†TV¬†for that now. The biking went down from four to five times a week of 40mins to two or three times, to once and sometimes not at all. I did get sick for a couple of weeks as well as realising I was probably iron deficient which made me tired easily and, in general, I wasn’t feeling up to doing much. Since then I have really become too lazy for my own good.

I started back up with my yoga practice a couple of weeks ago as mentioned in this post. It agitates my ribs a little bit but I can feel the improvement in my strength in my arms and am seeing some muscle definition. Now to lose the layer of chub that surrounds it and prevents me from looking like a goddess.

Summer is looming (as well as the NZ version of our wedding) and this body of mine is not in any condition to be seeing the sun in all it’s glory, let alone being photographed a thousand times on the happiest day of my life. I was a chubby bride in Canada and I only like one photo because, to me, I looked like a sausage stuffed into a dress at the last minute in the rest of them. I am currently pasty, wobbly and a bit squishy. I am trying to train my brain to eat well, exercise more and to¬†in-still¬†good habits into my day. It’s not even so much the junk that I eat, I don’t eat a lot of junk. I just eat…a lot. And being gluten intolerant and non dairy friendly, I sometimes can’t help myself when it comes to bread and cheese. Scott isn’t intolerant of either of those things (just intolerant of me ;)…) so we still have bread and dairy in the house for his lunches.

I used to have the BEST self discipline! I’d say no to any kind of bad food offered to me at a friends house, I’d carry water eeeeverywhere (I still do) and I didn’t eat out as often. I also wasn’t that into cooking elaborate banquets for my dinner every night like I tend to want to do now. Now that I have a little bit more disposable income, all I want to do is eat out! I love food; I would consider myself an amateur foodie and one of my all time fave things to do is go out and eat. Or stay home and cook. Hang out with friends and cook and eat. And I’m mad at myself. Mad that I used to have a really nice body and I took it for granted and STILL wasn’t happy with it. Mad that I’ve let myself get to this stage when I¬†know¬†what/how to keep the weight off yet I don’t do it.

SO I’ve had enough. I’m at my wicks end. The camel’s back hath been broken. I’m starting to take action and hopefully by writing this post, I’ll be encouraged to continue with my new good habits. To help me, I’ve printed out some phrases to stick on the cupboards, fridge and doors of the apartment ¬†reminding me¬†why I want to be good. They aren’t the nicest phrases and are quite self¬†deprecating¬†but they need to be. I don’t loathe myself, I am just disappointed, I WANT to get mad! Personal trainers don’t help you lose weight by wrapping their clients in cotton wool and saying “ok, just two press ups and then let’s go get ice-cream”. No, they yell and they push and they push until the client gets mad and¬†reaches breaking point. There is sweat and there is tears but, ultimately, there is action.

I can’t afford a personal trainer and I don’t like to be yelled at, so I am the motivator. I am moving in a couple of months so joining a gym is out of the question. The only thing standing in my way is me and maybe torrential rain. It’s up to me to get myself on my bike and go for a ride everyday.¬†Not¬†every second day because I feel I deserve a rest – no, every day.¬†With maybe a rest on Sunday – I’ll have earned it by then anyway ūüôā

As for the treats? Just say no. Just say no. Just say no….